- (minus) one

Here is Molly in the garden on top of the Met in NYC just yesterday.  She has been there for about a week with her Nana (my mom) for her "10-year-old trip to New York."  It always strikes me when one of the family members is gone how different the household feels.  With Mol gone, I have had to be the organizer, maker of plans and overall on top of the family's game.  Usually she does all of these things.  That is not to say that we have stumbled this week, or forgotten anything, it is just that is has been different.

Just Carson, Todd and myself in the house lends to a much more relaxed, easy-going, go-with-the-flow atmosphere which has been really fun!  Some nights we had dinner together, and others, it got late and we realised that everyone had just taken care of themselves!  Carson has been busy this week, for sure, but has been willing to just hang out with us in the evenings.  I treasure that time since I know that next summer (and beyond) we will have less and less time together; and probably less willingness on his behalf to just hang out with his parents.

In a few weeks, Carson will go to overnight camp (for the first time ever) and again, our house will feel strange with one of us missing.  With Carson gone, we will most likely have planned meals each night, each activity mapped out and planned for, and not much time to spare for just lounging.  Which is great. 

Both ways are fun, they are just different.  Now if the temps would just dip below 100 one of these days, all would be perfect!

hazy, lazy days of summer

Two days in a row, you say...what gives?  Mostly I was looking at these shots I took with my iphone right at wheat harvest time, and this one made me think a lot about these kansas summer days.  This is what we see here in middle america most days in the summer: blue skies that linger forever, with a golden yellow cut wheat field below.  Time stretches on like the horizon, and every few days, the wind kicks up a giant thunderstorm; exactly what happened yesterday.

I left the house for a run at 8pm last night, determined to finish the 4 miles + 2 hills this time without walking due to the oppressive heat.  The sky was full with navy blue and grey clouds, and I knew it would rain eventually.  As I kicked it up the hills, I could feel the front line passing above me.  The temperature dropped 10+ degrees, and the wind switched to the west.  It was heavenly.  I could have run forever.  By the time I rounded the corner to my street, big, fat drops of rain were falling, and the smell of hot, wet concrete was everywhere. 

I finished my run with energy to spare, and we got 1.5 inches of rain.  Now, that is a good way to end a day.

summer

I really haven't intended for this space to become a random, quarterly update, but it seems like that is what it is lately.  Life continues to progress as usual, but time seems to go by much more quickly.  I have spent it with friends (above, in Colorado) and family.  Mostly, I am frustrated.  I am frustrated for about 9 hours per day while I am at work.   This is not really news to anyone, but getting it down in writing just feels right.  I have done a few things to move forward and to help with these feelings, and that makes me feel good.  I can't really give out details as of yet, but after the summer, I think I can.

My kids are the best, and Todd is good.  His new job has proven to be very fulfilling and I believe he has found his calling.  Hector has graduated from KWU (praise god!) and is working on his last 2 credit hours, and then will be REALLY done!  It was an amazing weekend spent with his family and ours, and all of the people who have helped Hector get to this point in HIS life.  We love him to pieces, but are also ready for him to take his leap from the nest!

We have been spending time lately with our newest favorite baby, Colin.  He is the 4-month old son of friends of Hector and we (Molly) have been babysitting him recently, and what joy he brings!  I can totally understand why folks love to be grandparents so much!  I have a feeling that we will ALWAYS be a family who takes others in...be it babysitting for, or providing a place to live.  We really love what folks different than us can bring into our lives. 

I have been working really hard getting my body healthy this year, and now it is time for my mind.  This life is just too short to be miserable, and there are many things I have control of and can change.  I have found that cooking has been a great creative release for me, and Pinterest is just a fabulous place to find things and experiment.  Our family eats together and much more healthy now.  We ALL feel better (even when the kiddos complain about their veggies!).  I wish I had more time to photograph.  Right now, my running and health has taken the front seat, and thus the "spare" time in the day.  Some day, again, it will move nearer to the top of the list.

It feels really good here in this writing chair...I believe I will try to get here more often.