photowalk 09/28/09

the best and the worst

The undefeated Salina Pirates!

Some days I am just the best.  Otherdays, not so much.  Yesterday for about 1.5 hours I was the best.  You see, in-between Carson's soccer games, I needed to run to the store to get another memory card.  I had a brillian idea to go to Wal-Mart (yes, the dreaded Wal-Mart...but only because they have the machine...keep reading) and get the cards, but to also develop the photos I took during the first game, and take them back with me to the second game.  Our Wal-Mart has several of those "instant develop" machines, which don't do so well for really high quality developing, but for parents of kids who were playing soccer a mere 2 hours ago, it is pretty cool.  So, I had photos for parents of all of the kids on the team (save for one, who somehow I missed).  It was a good afternoon.

Truer words were never said (sung)

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becomming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror
Looking back at you

...

I can't get close if you're not there
I can't get inside if there's no soul to bare
I can't fix you, I can't save you
It's something you have to do

Come Back to Me
David Cook
(cringing as I type that)

I am alive

The flu?  It was horrible.  It seems the older I get the worse these things make me feel.  After 3 days in bed, I am finally up and around.  I ate a little rice today.  I stripped our bed.  Typhoid Amanda is no more.  Be gone, you nasty flu!

you capture-macro

This week's You Capture theme was macros.  I love taking pictures with the macro function, but with this new camera, I need much more practice.  It is really hard to keep really still!  On with the show:

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triathlon...check

I finished.

1:35:57

swim, bike, run

I can check that off my list.

Will I do it again?

Yes, with a road bike

sabatical...from life

the view from Coronado Heights on a hazy Labor Day

I need a break

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a sabatical from my life

my heart just isn't in it

I am worn out, worn down and tired.

marriage is hard

work is not rewarding

my only joy right now is my children.

I recognize all of these things;
I know I need to take some time away
away from this life I have created
to cry
to reflect
to meditate
to be creative
to get back to being me.

I have started the internal process

of seperation

from this life I have created,

and I need to stop it

before

the cord is cut.

please think of me. I need all the thoughts I can get.

you capture-old signs

This week's You Capture challenge was old signs. I live in a part of the world where there are old signs everywhere. Just a quick trip down the road and I can drive through numerous old (mostly abandoned) towns. I have always loved looking at old signs, and it was fun to photograph them!

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found time

Last night, Molly had soccer practice.  Carson did too, but his coach (his dad) ws sick, so it was cancelled.  I found myself with a great opportunity for some time alone with my son.  Carson.  The 9-year-old.  My 4th grader.  My lovey-dovey, will-still-kiss-me son.  I love this "found time."  So, we decided I talked him into going to the boy's high-school soccer game.   We got ourselves some nachos, Starburst and a Diet Dr. Pepper.  We made our way up to the top of the stadium to watch.

The game was a blow-out.  None of his friends were there.  The crowd was sparse.  We had a ball.  It was so pleasant and wonderful to just spend time with my son.  My growing-up-too-quickly son.  My son who scooted up close to me to just hung out.  You see, it wasn't even about the game.  The game, honestly was boring and secondary.  For us, it was just about being together.  A hour of time we had stumbled upon to share. 

I love these found times, and have to keep reminding myself to look for them; not to worry about having a whole afternoon together, but to enjoy those little blips of time together on his growing-up timeline.  little blips...

have you ever...

...gone to Burger King for lunch (after a long bike ride and then a run) and ordered both a Whopper with cheese (without tomato) AND a classic chicken sandwich?  Because you couldn't decide which sounded better?  And ate them both?  I did.   Today.